Choice....

This is just my second post.... and i got the inspiration to write after reading the most important woman in my life's blog entry...... She is none other than a girl named Sharon Lee Cai Shi..... A girl who had occupied my heart and made me loyal to her.....

Alright... Enough of my mushy stuff towards her...... I shall start proper....

Choices.....

In her entries, she claimed that i am enjoying. She mentioned that i have a target while she got mixed up in her life, not knowing where to turn to.

This is very dangerous, not only to her, but to anyone who are also feeling the same thing. Imagine you are running, and after covering a good distance, you feel tired, your latic acid bites your muscles and your mind asks you to stop. But what makes a runner complete the race?

Its because he knows when is the finishing line.

Imagine you running, and you do not know when to stop. How are you going to take the next step? In fact, I believe the next step is the start of the walking.

So dear, like i always said to you, you have to know what u are doing, and what you want. What you want doesn't need to be so ambitious. Even aiming for the next overseas trip is rewarding.

Choices are available to us.

We can choose to be happy, choose to be sad. We can allow ourselves to pity ourselves, or we can choose to delay self gratitude and work harder. We can choose to look from the other angle. We can choose to cool down and think about things happening around us. We can also choose to think of other people instead of ourselves.

In many ways, we can choose.

But more than often, we think for ourselves. We choose to believe that such a life is dull, and our life is so pitiful, making up of sleep, work, money and fame. We choose to demoralise ourselves when we think of what is happening to ourselves now.

What we failed to think of is "WHY".

Why are things at this stage? Why am I thinking this way? Why is the world crumpling around me? Why is people treating me this way?

More than often, it is ourselves doing all the calculations, and in the end, the equation ends up mulitplying our pitiful self.

If you are reading this blog after reading my lovely girlfriend's blog, you might think we are quarreling again. NO.

The words written are not for her. Its more for everyone who is feeling lost and sad about what they are facing now. Including myself.

But i chose to write out what i feel, hopefully in turn consoling myself. I need to think about things around me too. Its time for re-evaluation. Not self destruction.

P.S To my love, you are always what i worked hard for. I love you. I will be there for you, no matter what.

Why did i make a blog

This blog was born purely because of 2 group of people. They changed my view against blogging and i thought the best way to judge is to try it out myself.

First group is of course my girlfriend. Why?

She made me edit her blogskin as i have knowledge in web programming. I had to decode the stupid skin html coding and try to understand what the hell is going on. After a few times, i realised i could get used to these s**t. I mean.... since i am already doing it.... why not make a skin myself? Afterall.... i am trained.....

Next group of people is my secondary school friends. Wonder what's wrong with them, recently had a couple of outing consecutively packed day after another. I will speak about them in later posting, otherwise this will get nowhere. They talked about their blog and their experience with blogs.

The excerpts are like these....

Juanne, "You know, blogs are meant to improve the standards of our english. But sometimes when i read my staff's blog, i immediately close the window as i realised they are polluting my english....."

Cuiling, "Perhaps they need some guidance.... they don't even know that they are making mistakes....."

Ching kai, "till now i still don't know what is verbs, nouns adjectives... blah blah blah...."

Me, "I think i know what is nouns.... it refers to any object.... verbs are movements..... adjectives are words that describe nouns...."

Cuiling, "What are adverbs then?"

Me, "Errmmm... is it those words like between, to, or, is ??"

Cuiling, "Wrong, adverbs are words that are describing verbs....."

While Cuiling, Ching kai and me are still discussing.... Alice, juanne and sharon are in their own world about blogs.....

Juanne, "Alice's blog are quite nice.... she knows how to write well... abt the 3 animals story....."

End of excerpts...

Then it dawned on me that i haven't been writing since i enter polytechnic, which was about 5 years or more!!

And what is the best way to improve english?

What you are reading is what i am trying..........