Contradiction II

There are some ways of life which contradicts each other, for example medicine can cure and harm, or same famous person wants serenity, but some just wants to be famous. This world is of a perfect balance, u win some, u lose some. How many of us can understand that some loses are to balance out the winnings u get later?

Certain things certainly can't be taken for granted. Like how i used to think i will somebody one day, i am getting tired. Like how i think i can control myself, i start to lose control. Like how i thought i can accept certain things, i start to reject them. Like how i think what will mine forever, i start to lose it.

What comes around, turns around. If things aren't meant to be yours, you may have it now, and still lose it somehow.

How true.

Try as you might, dry your creative juices, even seek for advices, you will still lose to destiny. Rotten fruits can never be as tasty than fresh fruits. Good advices always turns to deaf ears.

I used to want to grow up faster. Now that i am there, i want to go back. I want to be as carefree. I want to be as cool when i am taunted. I want to remain neutral to everything. I want love, peace, loyalty and trust. I don't want suspicious, mind games and betrayal.

I am tired. What's my life going to be? How will it turn out to be? Whatever i thought before is totally the opposite now. I thought i will be happy, energetic, optimistic and cool tempered. Now, i think i am sad, lethargic, perssimistic and hot tempered. How to be successful when u are the above? How give happiness to your love ones?

Perhaps, i am really destined to lose.