Disappointed.... At myself

Life is really good to me... I am given a wonderful wife, a lovely family, not a bad look(i think i don't look that bad....), good height, nice body (in terms of health), great thinking brains and a good job.

However, like those spoiled brats who doesn't know how good they are, or like those rich man who thinks they are poor, or like an asshole who keep thinking the whole world owes them a living, i didn't appreciate that. Or rather, i didn't put them to good use. Actually i appreciate what i am given, and i am contented with what i have. But, i could have made it better. Better for ppl around me.

I flunged my exams. I could have scored. But because i kept thinking i have time for studies, i didn't have the urgency to do it. I spent my time gaming, kept thinking last minute preparations would be enough.

Great. I got my retribution.

If i am the only one bearing the brute of it, then i won't be that sad. I am feeling sad because that all my promises to my dearest is gone! What I wanted her to have is gone.

I won't give up that easily of course. Those who knows me understand. But, I am really disgusted at myself, like how i lamented why i didn't study harder in poly.

Crying over spilt milk. A good cliche for a guy like me. Who just cannot learn from past mistakes. Ha!

I deserved it. Period.